A Tad Frightening

I’m a definite introvert.  I don’t like going to large parties, especially when I don’t know many people.  In larger groups, I become the wallflower.  My hobbies include things I do alone: writing and painting.  I always need some time to myself to recharge.  I also tend to ask a lot of questions, yes because I am curious, but also because I don’t like to share that much.  I like to listen to what people have to say.

I have a nice number of friends, but for the most part, most of them don’t know all about me.  Some people are missing the puzzle pieces of my past while others lack knowledge of my previous relationships and my take on love.  Sure, there are friends who could write a book about me, but I also have friends that I don’t feel comfortable confiding in.  I’ve talked about trust in a few blog posts before and as stated previously, there are only a couple friends that I genuinely trust.

I have this one friend who is probably the nicest person I have ever met, and if not, he’s up there high on the list.  He’s also an introvert, and maybe that’s why I seem to click with him.  But, he’s a rare person because when I’m around him I feel completely comfortable.  I never feel like I have to hide anything, or act a certain way, and he never hurts my feelings.  And I know I can tell him anything.  It’s a tad frightening in fact because I can be so honest and open and vulnerable with him.  He never judges and he never takes what I say and tells other people.  I act myself, incredibly weird and random, yet I talk a lot.  And it’s a bit scary because I know I tell him a lot.  It’s an exhilarating feeling as well because it’s so freeing knowing I don’t have to worry about what I say.  But, at the same time, like I said, it’s a bit terrifying because I always wonder since I am compelled to share around him, will I ever say too much?

 

 

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